Ensayos y crónicas bilingües sobre fronteras y pertenencia//Bilingual essays and chronicles of borders and belonging

A bald eagle perched on a branch, ready to take flight, with a blurred mountainous landscape in the background.

When I first read the line attributed to Frederick Douglass,
“Once you learn to read, you will be forever freed,”
something flickered inside me, but I still didn’t fully understand what it meant.
I had known how to read for years — but I read in a way that now I recognize as superficial.

I used to read like this:
I read so others would see me reading,
I held a book the way someone holds a credential,
I memorized paragraphs because I was thirsty for approval,
because I needed to prove something I did not yet feel as true within myself.

That habit of memorizing was the clearest sign of my insecurity:
it was not enough to be, I needed to appear.
I was not reading to understand — I was reading to impress.
And although Douglass spoke of freedom,
I was still reading inside a small prison made of ego and fear.

Over time, something began to shift.
It was the words — yes — but also my increasingly constant contact with nature.
The more I read, the more I felt the need to go out, to walk, to breathe among trees,
as if books themselves were pushing me toward another kind of reading:
the reading of the living world.

At one stage of my life, I became an explorer of trails deep within the woods.
I spent hours following narrow paths, listening to branches crack beneath my steps,
letting silence say things no book had ever dared to speak aloud.
One day, as I walked, I discovered a bald eagle’s nest far away.
The terrain gifted me a privileged vantage point —
I could see the queen of birds from a place almost no one else would.
I watched her land, lift into flight, return with a precision choreographed by the sky itself.

From that day on, I returned every afternoon.
I returned as one returns to a hidden altar.
I would sit, unhurried, watching the eagles repeat their perfect routine.
And there, watching them again and again,
I began to see the majesty and perfection of the eagle,
and above all — her certainty.

The eagle never doubts herself.
She never questions whether she deserves the sky.
She requires no applause to unfold her wings.
She does not seek approval to hunt, to fly, to exist.
She simply is.

That was the threshold — the opening into a deeper understanding.
There, before that eagle, I began to sense that I, like her, am also perfect,
that I belong to a universal order,
and that I was created by the same Eternal Artist who created the eagle.
The only difference is that she does not doubt — and I do.

It was there, in nature, that I truly learned to read.
First I learned to read books,
then I learned to read life.
First I read paragraphs,
then eternal moments:
a sunset between mountains,
a tree holding its posture against the wind,
a river moving forward even when no one sees it.

It was there that I began to see God —
not as a distant figure, but as the Whole of which I am a part.
I saw the piece assigned to me,
the piece that belongs to that Whole,
the part where I, too, belong to divine perfection.

It was there that I stopped memorizing and began becoming the self
designed by an Eternal Artist who creates only perfect things.
My literary capacity grew like the eagle’s wings above me —
steady, firm, conscious of its natural greatness.
And in that moment, I knew I was part of a universal order
that moves only toward abundance and perfection.

Then Douglass’s sentence rewrote itself inside me.
“Once you learn to read you will be forever free”
no longer meant simply knowing how to assemble letters.

It meant reading in this way:
reading until you understand who you are,
reading until you see God in everything,
reading until you remember that your origin is perfect,
that you are not separate from the divine order,
that true freedom is the act of remembering what you have always been.

I learned to read for real when I stopped using words as a mask
and allowed them to enter as revelation.
I learned to read when the forests became pages
and the eagles became living verses from a gospel written in the sky.

And since then, I know this:
I am not only someone who reads books.
I am someone who has been read by Life —
and from that moment on,
at last,
I was free.

And though the road ahead toward my highest Self is still long,
I am certain now that the path I walk is the right one.
I have not arrived — but I am arriving.
And my advantage — my light, my breath, my refuge —
is that every time I grow weary, Life grants me the sacred gift
of contemplating the perfection of the universe that surrounds me endlessly.
A universe that speaks, that reminds, that holds me.
A universe that whispers like an old master with open wings
that life has only one side:
the good, the perfect, the individual.

Footnote:
The sentence “Once you learn to read, you will be forever freed” is widely attributed to Frederick Douglass; however, there is no verified primary source confirming that he wrote or spoke it verbatim. The idea aligns strongly with themes in his autobiographical and abolitionist writings, but the exact phrasing appears to be a modern paraphrase rather than a documented quotation.


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  1. Avatar de Linda at The Mindful Migraine

    How wonderful this is!
    “my light, my breath, my refuge” – this is perfect!
    You have a lovely way of writing my friend!
    May your week-end be wonderful!
    Linda xx

    1. Avatar de Emiliano del Refugio

      Thank you so much — your words mean more than you know.
      I’m glad the phrase resonated with you, it felt right and true.

      Wishing you a beautiful weekend, Linda.

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